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i just had to check to be sure, because i heard a weed whacker, but yeah, our landscaper has died or something. it�s been weeks and they never came back. they came, they cleared a huge area, they sprayed poison all over so that everything died, and then they never returned. now our yard looks like kansas in the grapes of wrath. i cannot imagine that our neighbors don�t hate us in the extreme.
i�m starting to hate us too. this job is absurdly large and we cannot go it alone, but clearly something needs to be done. goddamn pikers, seriously.

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bateman called them at least. he�s not a big one for confrontation, so i thought this would go on for a bit, but no, he called. hopefully the landscaper feels some shame, i know i would.

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i�m over the edward thing, i think? i�m still angry, i mean seriously angry, but what can i do? it�s the same situation as with his ex really. she just disappeared and so did he. except he used me and then disappeared, she was just mean, and then disappeared. maybe it�s not me per se, maybe i just have horrible taste in people. this is always possible. next week is the book group. i will try again. i don�t like that i do miss these people, and that i would give it another go in a heartbeat, but that�s how i get stepped on. i need to learn to stop being so open with people who have proven to be cold to me.

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i didn�t have to watch my niece, which was a relief. apparently though, i never had to. her mom had the day off, but would rather have gone to the beach than hang with her kid. how charming. she should have asked the �other daddy� to watch her. it just stuns me. all the talk about never introducing her kid to a guy she�d date, being responsible, yadda yadda. all crap. all garbage. you�re in a tight spot when my brother is making you look inept. the kid is exposed to smoking on a regular enough basis that she randomly just talks about it. she came here one day completely covered in infected flea bites, and now she�s got an �other daddy.� i really thought the kid had a chance, but now her mom has put her on the bus to whitetrashville and it�s sad. just when my brother�s pulling his shit together, getting a better job, going to school, setting himself up to really be able to support this kid in a decent fashion, the mom is going down the tubes. makes all that effort early in the game seem like an annoying waste.

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today is the day. two years gone by. it�s a really nice day. sunny and breezy. i�m going to go down to the water i think, though once i�m there, i don�t know what to do really. i�ve said my goodbyes, i�m not a �talk to the dead� sort. it�s a forced habit and it�s odd. right now though, it seems like the right thing to do and so i shall continue. when it no longer seems that way, i guess i�ll stop.

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i switched therapy about. changed the day. i think i�ll be more productive doing it on mondays for some reason. putting appointments in the middle of the week just ruins the whole week for me. i�m setting up my life the way i set my college schedule. everything early in the week, and have the longest weekends possible. and nothing before 1pm. that�s the way you do it, right right.

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it�s looking more and more like we�re going to have to go to vegas for real. i so don�t want to go. stupid weddings. goddamnit. i like staying at home.

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